Written on: July 15th, 2021
I'm jealous of the bees
The ants and caterpillars in the trees
Cause they don't have a 9-5
Just happily, roaming free
No sense of wrong or right
Just fully living each day and night
Living on their own accord
No TV's, laptops or phones and still, never getting bored
I'm jealous of the bees
Even when they buzz all around me
Because they're just looking for a flower
Something to fulfill their every need
Sometimes I get flattered, because maybe they see it in me
Maybe they know something I don't know
Maybe they know all that I really can achieve
I'm jealous of the bees
Because they know exactly what they came here to do
To pollinate the Earth, don't that sound a lot like my soul's truth?
But why is it so hard to believe
That I can do everything I dream?
Maybe cause the bees
Don't have to worry about what they're gonna eat or finding a place to sleep
I'm jealous of the bees
Because they got everything they need
They even stick together
Build houses and give each other shelter
I'm jealous of the bees
Because sometimes this journey feels like it's just me
And sometimes when you're alone
Finding peace of mind ain't as easy as it seems
I'm jealous of the bees
Because they know they purpose and they live in it
Then there's me, still trynna figure it out
And every other week it seems like I gotta pivot
And you can't quit this game
Nah, once you start it, you gotta live it
Even though sometimes this life feels like it's made for me to fail
I still believe there's a reason cause I damn sure don't believe in hell
I'm jealous of the bees
Because neither do they
When something pisses them off?
They'll give up their whole lives just to sting that ass right away
I'm jealous of the bees
Because they don't even know what I'm saying
When I'm screaming, crying outside, or even when I'm praying
I'm jealous of the bees
Because they're probably laughing at me
Like "Look at how she's thinkin'"
"Don't she know we ain't that much different?"
I wanna be like the bees
Because their history is still in tact
They're not worried about generational curses
Or who signed what life contract
I wanna be like the bees
Because that's not their burden to bear
Their tribes still work together
They'll still know how to share
So instead of being jealous
Maybe I'll take a note from their page
Cause the bees are probably the ancestors
Just trynna show me the way